Janet's First Words Since Brother's Death

A heart-broken Janet Jackson has finally broken her silence and opened up to Harper's Bazaar magazine about her devastating loss of her brother.

Below are a few of the questions and her responses:

"My brother is, I mean was ... You have to forgive me, because it's really hard to believe he's passed."



"We had so much fun that day," she said of May 14, the last day she saw Michael. The family was having a big get together, complete with rowdy kids and a Thai food meal. "We kept calling each other after and saying how great it was." More excerpts from Janet's first interview after the jump.

What Made Michael Tick: "He loved to laugh. The last time we were together, he'd laugh so hard, he would just start crying. Sometimes his humor would be corny, sometimes dry. He loved the Three Stooges, he loved slapstick, he loved Eddie Murphy in his silly comedies. He loved to have fun. He loved to play."

If She Had One More Day With Him: "I'd relive that moment we had when we were kids, do our little run: We'd wake up, feed the animals, spend the entire day together."
 
Taking Care of Her Older Bro: "He'd have the same red shirt, the same black pants, the same white T-shirt. Mike was very simple. When I was 14 years old, I would shop for him. [Michael was then 21 and a megastar.] I washed his clothes, cleaned his room. When Mother would go out of town, she'd say, 'I'm leaving you in charge. Take care of Mike.' I would head home from school, see what he needed, then go straight to the stores ... You know something else? He loved to wear his shoes all the way down. His penny loafers would have huge holes in the bottom."

On Paris' Comments at MJ Memorial: "I was really proud ... People said to me that Michael's daughter speaking really gave them a sense of how he was as a father, in her words. Paris is incredibly smart; they are all so smart. She's a sweet girl. The kids are doing well. They're with all their cousins; that family love will keep them going."

What's Next for Her: "You know, I never look back on what I've done unless I'm asked, but I remember Mike saying, 'You need to stop and enjoy it. Think about everything you've done, all that you've accomplished' ... But there's so much more I want to do."

Thank you Janet for opening up and letting us in on how you are feeling... We love and support you always...